I have assignment dues next friday and the monday after next week. I am already starting to feel the stress. I know its only the 3rd week of school but its been a long time since i studied and now having to start all over again is kinda tough for me. Yes you may say that i'm weak...lousy or just useless. But i know myself best. I know this stage that i am going through now is just temporary and i will get use to it as time goes by but i can't even get through it now...i am the kind of person who stantly need people to be around me, i can't stand lonliness. Now, being so far away from home and have no one beside me when i need a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on, its really tough for me.
I really want to be independent, strong and brave. I know i will be a better person after all of these and the road is long and tough and i have to persevere on...but thinking that i am such a cry baby or weak, i just can't help but to cry...i keep telling myself that i can do it and i really want to show everyone that i can!
There are times that i did think of giving up and going home but i will disappoint not only my family but everyone who cares for me and i will disappoint myself. I just want to get this over and done with so i can go back home for the holidays!
Thank you Jinde for always listening to me, hearing me cry and constantly giving me words of encouragement. These small little actions means alot to me. Thank you Janice. Joanne and Eve for always being there for me when i need someone to talk to, cry with or just have a laugh with. You guys never fail to brighten my day...just by seeing you makes me happy.
I will be strong! I will perservere! I will not give up! I'm sorry if i disappoint any of you in any way but i will keep on trying my best!
Sorry mum and dad for not telling you all cause i don't want you to worry about me. I will keep on trying, i will not give up so easily! I know i never say this but I just want to say thank you for all that you have done for me and I love you! I really cannot wait go back and see you again! Notforgetting my wonderful sis who is always there for me, i really want to be like you, be independent and not be afraid of anything. You are always my role model and i admire you in every aspect. Thanks!
I know i sound like i'm writing a speech but i'm just trying to pen down my thoughts.
It will be a better day tomorrow!