I have so many thoughts running through my head...have no idea why but whenever i have the spare time, i will start thinking about stuff. I have no idea whether its a good or a bad thing too.
I will think about my future, like my job, what kind of life will i lead and as a person, will i grow to be a better person. Then, i'll think about Jinde and i. What will become of us? Will there be a forever and ever, even though both of us wants it that way. We can't tell what the future holds, but we do wish it could be forever. I have also been thinking about the past, like the things i did, what have i done wrong, so i can change and repent on my mistakes.
Life is just so unpredictable. Why can't life be sweet? Why can't life be a box of all my favourite chocolates? Seriously, i don't have confidence in myself for doing anything. Why can't i make 2 sides happy? Why must there be unhappiness? When people tell me they are happy, i really am happy for them. When people are feeling down, i will lend a listening ear and give whatever advice i have, even though they may not be reliable...hahaha
But when it comes to me, i don't know what to do. I feel lost at times that i just want to isolate myself but i cna't do that. I love people! I want to be there for someone and i hate being alone.
Where will i be in 5 years time?